Freak..tolerance?
You are the reason why i juz wanna stay away at times..
Our relationship has never gotten so worse and its like straining ever since the past few weeks already..
I know ur concerned but sometimes u juz make me so irritated and pissed..
Cant i really juz have a quiet and peaceful time at night?
Sometimes i've really had enough in school..i need the peace from you badly..
I'm 17, i'm in jc..maybe i need juz a little more freedom from you..
Our relationship is bad enough from the start..
We already dun communicate much..
Must you make things worse by doing tt?
Cant u juz tell me what u think instead of juz always letting me know through another person?
Coming back home and not seeing me..
does it really bother u?
i thought u cared most for the little one only?
i've already given up trying to amend the gap, juz so be it..
Coming home late everyday and u start grounding me..
I'm too old to be grounded already..
If ur worried about my safety then i'm perfectly safe, but if its those stupid unduly things then i think its really unneccassary..i can have male friends right?
have some trust in me please, nothing will happen..
I know what i'm doing..
I feel so bad and sick saying out all those above but really..
ok, maybe i should also do some self-reflection..
i've been playing too much these 2 weeks..
too engrossed in all the outside stuff rather than my studies..this, i gotta admit..
i remember telling myself to work really really hard so as not to disappoint myself again in a levels..
during the beginning period when sch starts was still quite hardworking in studying and everything but everything is slowly slacking down now already..
and so, i should really start the gear going again already i guess..
I should stick to my stand and what i'm supposed and have to do more firmly instead of getting swayed by opinions or getting too distracted already..
I need to exercise more self- control and discipline..i hope i can do it again..
really sick and tired of finding myself lost in everything lost around me..
Ok, its the march holidays now but its not even considered cause everyday's packed and we even have to go back to sch so many days..
Recently, life has been quite fun and sch has been a blast cause of all the friends and everything^^
Going jothem's house with janice and gm, having dinner with josiah, jothem, gm, janice, going josiah's house, jamming session with clarice they all at bugis was cool ttm! jamming session after sch today followed by josiah's house again..many many things happened for the past period of time..
Its a good and bad thing cause its bonding some of us closer but its also dividing us away from the rest of the class as well..hahas
so..i also dunno..but i know i've been too distracted recently already and i really really need to settle down again and control myself already..help?..hahahs
ok, super damn lazy to update already..
shall upload the photos another day..
there's juz so many things, i dunno what to say, what to describe or what to even think..what should i really do?
