Soaking up in the comfort of music and a cup of hot chocolate on a cool and rainy day.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Out of place..

Super long never post le..was kinda lazy..hahas

So yea, i got into srjc hahas

Was feeling very mixed up and confused and everything for the past few weeks..

I didnt know how to feel to get in sr..

Some say its ok but some say not..

But what to do..i've already got in so i've juz gotta accept the fact instead of wallowing in self pity and comparing so much with others..

I guessed i've become used to the depressing feeling of knowing how well others did as compared to me and everything..trying to not care so much anymore..

After all, like what they've said, good jc or sucky jc, its still the same alevels at the end..

I'll remeber that^^

Hmm..was feeling kinda unsure and scared when reporting to sch on the first day..

All the new faces and unfamiliar environment makes me feel so outta place..so weird..

Dun really know how to describe those feelings in words but still..yea..

Met my og group and started bonding with ice breaker games and everything..

It all boils down back to the beginning where everything willl have to start from scratch with making frens and everything..its feels so scary..

The first few days of orientation was mostly talks and games and house time and everything..

Tts where our og group ppl started knowing each other better and got closer..

BUT we only have 3 days tgt before they split us up into our classes already lo..so saddening..

Got to know quite a few ppl in the og but all went to diff classes..

Next was the cg classes which will be tgt for the whole of this year..1S22

The first day with cg feels so weird and strange Again..

But the next few days are then the so called real orientation with alll the games and activities..

Got to know my class better la..the girls were quite bonded la, where we all went for breaks and lunch tgt hahas

But now, the whole class is closer le la hahas

Overall, the orientation was quite ok la hahas

Sometimes it was quite sianz but sometimes its quite fun as well..so contridicting huh..hahas

Now, sr didnt seem tt bad already..hahas

But still, the people were like so diff from those in cchms..dunno how to really say la, but juz diff hahas

I've learnt that, its easy to make new frens, but as to how long the friendship really lasts, some effort would be needed. hahas

But no matter wat! I still miss my friends and sec sch super duper lots!!! Really miss all of them..No matter how much we say we wun dift apart from each other, we still surely will..and so, lets juz hope tt we'll all still always keep in touch now and then hahas

Was feeling quite ok after tt le la hahas

Short summary of the past few weeks cause too long didnt update le so too lazy to be too detailed hahhas

In a super big dilemna as to what cca to join sia..

Went for dance auditions the other day and its was like super tiring and hard la!

Totally screwed up the audions lo..

Went for guitar trials too and found that it was quite ok as well..hahas

Really didnt know whether to join a niche cca or a more slack cca cause next year is syf year and alevels..so if its too intensive and everything then cant cope jiu die le..

so...i really dunno how!!!

Want to learn guitar as well and was quite towards guitar le until juz now dance called to say i passed the auditions and its kinda compulsory for me to join already..

But now i dun really feel like joining le lo..

Theres like so many pros and cons weighing on each side la!! haiz...

I can only say i really really hate making decisions..especially when i'm such an undecisive person..how!!!

Actually still got many many things wanted to blog about de..but really lazy now le lo..

Shall juz post some pics to sum them up..

Cant wait for CNY man..:(

Lectures and lessons are starting..should i be worried or happy?

Haiz..lectures will definitely be a bore and i'll definitely have a hard time staying awake..

oh man..i feel so screwed now..

Today's captain ball after sch was funnn!! :DD

My class is getting more bonded!! i hope..hhahas

And i miss my frens alot alot alot!!! super lots!!! :(